So, yesterday was a big day for me, I finally got my ADHD coach! š
Honestly, what a relief! Itās like finding that long lost sock you swore was gone forever, but instead, itās actually helping me organize my chaotic brain to fuck. And wow, Iām already feeling the effects. Day three of not taking my ADHD meds, and let me tell you, my sense of humour is back with a vengeance. Iām cracking jokes like a stand up comedian at an open mic nightāthough, you know, with more awkward pauses and less audience approval. So it’s nice now having that ADHD coach for the business and just in general, and the overall relief is huge.

But hereās the kicker. I had this life changing moment regarding my goals yesterday. Like, āholy grailā level stuff, but of course, I canāt share the juicy details yet. Welcome to the glamorous world of solopreneur life, where youāre dying to tell your mates about your wins, but also no one really gives a fuck, so I’ve been keeping it down-low like itās a secret mission from MI6. Just know Iām bubbling with excitement and may burst into confetti at any moment. However, it feels weird not being able to celebrate with anyone properly, and it’s something I’d usually share with a partner as it would change stuff in the relationship for the better. meh
Also, big shoutout to B for chatting today! Itās been nice connecting and sharing laughs, who knew a simple convo could feel like therapy (or at least a cheaper version of it)?
Speaking of therapy, it got me good yesterday. holy balls. Apparently, all I needed to do was tell my mum I love her more and poof, all my problems would vanish into thin air! Wow, I shouldāve known it was that easy. I could have saved a fortune on therapy sessions. Next week, Iāll be floating on cloud nine just by calling my mum. Nah jokes, it’s difficult for me to do, but we’ll get there
And letās not forget about my ongoing feud with the council tax people. WOW. Just to keep things nice and spicy, I racked up another two parking fines today, adding to my ever growing collection of 150+ fines. Yup, Iām a certified bad boy now. š Iāll be sure to write a whole post about that soon. Seriously, at this rate, I might as well start a parking fine support group
On a more thoughtful note, Iāve been thinking about M today. I hope she’s doing alright you know. I still don’t really understand how we got to this position from like love, to blocking each other lol. I was doubting if she really loved me and maybe it was all just a manipulation, but my therapist kicked some sense into me and said, what if you believed what she said. I know she cared, and maybe I was just too tangled up in my head to see it clearly
Iām also learning loads about attachment styles, and wow, turns out Iām an anxious one! I’m pretty sure I’m avoidant, who knew my emotional rollercoaster could actually qualify for a theme park? š¢ Time to flip the script and transform into a secure attachment style with the work we’re doing, aint gonna let that shit do me, for my future partner or me
Now, about this dating life of mine, hmm, I feel like I should be out there, swiping right like itās my job, but honestly, I just donāt feel it. Itās like my heart hit the pause button, and I’m not sure if it’s because I’m still processing things with M or if Iām just not vibing with anyone else. My therapist thinks itās a sign of something shifting in me, and I canāt decide if thatās good or just a clever way of saying, āYouāre a mess, but weāre working on it!ā
However, my therapist says something is changing for me, and honestly, Iām here for it. I just hope itās for the better and not just my inner weirdo saying, āLetās make things even more complicated!ā Hereās to embracing the chaos and seeing where this wild ride takes me